the conflict

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being a student, i think my worries for simply everything has gone beyond hope. i like to worry a lot and ever since the little disagreement arise, I'm so keen to get out of here, been looking for a new refershing place and i guess i've given too much attention on it, my exams are goin on... moving out now sounds insane. but i'm not sure why, I just wanna find a different place. looking out for pleasant apartment is not like buying sumthing in the market. I know that. but I can't wait to move out too. i've given too much pressure to people on that. i'm sorry becos i've no intention to stress anyone. i'm having mood swings lately not that I'm unhappy with the things happening around me, m just unhappy with myself. why am I feeling this way? I'm starting to question my personality. yeah, maybe some of you think that I should've done that earlier. saying that I hate myself is idiotic but i can't do anything but to blame myself for being too eager. this may be a signal from God that I should just keep the way things are.

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